Why won’t anyone support me?

One brick wall after another. Everywhere I turn, I hit a brick wall. Why is that? Why won’t people help me? Trust me. I have heard EVERY excuse. Your uncle makes too much money. Your uncle isn’t sick enough. Your uncle’s apartment is two blocks outside our delivery zone. Your uncle is at the bottom of a 2 year waiting list. Why can’t folks see that something is not right? Good grief! I never know when someone is going to call me back, so I now carry an orange backpack where ever I go. In this backpack is all the paperwork. I have doctor’s notes, banking notes, credit card statements, VA information, utility information, life insurance, legal stuff – you name it, I have it. It is all in TWO 3 inch binders. And it is HEAVY. But it travels with me everywhere. And I use it all the time.

I have several challenges right now. Challenge #1: I need to get him to eat. That means I need a way to get him food. He isn’t driving (despite having the NEW car). This should be easy, right? You would be wrong. Meals on Wheels. That is the 2 year waiting list and he technically is 2 blocks outside the delivery zone. My guardian angel has been taking him groceries and making sure he has food. And I think neighbors are checking in on him.

Challenge #2: I have got to figure out what is wrong with him. I feel that there is more going on here than folks have figured out. The primary doctor is being as helpful as he can, but I think he is confused. The physiologist is amazing and I am super glad to have her. She got him into an outpatient program catered to older adults that have mental health issues. Many have bi-polar like he does; several have had a hiccup due to the loss of a spouse or loved one. All need help picking up pieces and learning how to cope again. Bonus for this program: they pick him up AND they feed him breakfast and lunch. He goes 3 days a week. Oh – and insurance pays for it! YES!

And finally, challenge #3: the divorce that was supposed to be a quick one is still dragging on. Oh – and Fred is BLEEDING money.

Oh, Lord, Grant to me the serenity of mind to accept that which cannot be changed; courage to change that which can be changed, and wisdom to know the one from the other, through Jesus Christ our Lord, Amen